Mood Swing Barby
November 2nd, 2010
I sometimes wonder about how personal to get on this blog. I sit here with a blank square and a blinking cursor and it all seems very contained, but once you submit your piece it is "out there". My basic rule of thumb is to be brutally honest when I think it could be of some helpt to whoever is reading, and if it isn't going to damage anyone's reputation but mine. So with that in mind, I thought I'd let you know that I am not doing all that well, and that I suspect it may be down to cerazette, a birth control pill that I have been on for one month so far. I am an angrier, sadder, less predictable version of myself at the moment, and actually, I'd love it to be due to hormonal interference, because I honestly can't find any other valid-seeming reason for the situation. And it is A Situation. Shawn will agree (he is getting the brunt of my temper).
I think I will probably stop taking it, and see whether my practically perfect true self reemmerges (JOKE!). Anyone else had a similar experience?
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Paula~ November 2nd, 2010 ~ 15:11You're at a very busy stage of life right now, so it may not only be hormones. However, just a month of a different hormone probably isn't enough for your body to settle down yet. Give it time sweetie, and remember you can't be all things to all people. Concentrate on Hubby and girls and don't stress about what doen't get done.
I'm sure you have lots of friends and family to talk to but if you need an objective stranger to chat about life with two preschool girls.. I'm available! been there , done that got the tshirt ,, just waiting for the grandchildren now :-D You're in my prayers!
Jo
~ November 2nd, 2010 ~ 20:11You are lovely Paula! Thank you. I get really thrown by emotional wobbles with the whole depression history, and probably shouldn't panic as soon as I do. Feeling okay this evening, but then Shawn is out, so no one to be mean to!
Martin
~ November 5th, 2010 ~ 12:11Hey Jo,
Sorry to hear you're not doing too well. Clearly I have no experience of birth control pills, but I do know that chemicals (both biological and medicinal!)can be a real pain at times!
But anyway, we all think you're wonderful, and I'm sure Shawn would agree... :) So keep going hun, and let's hope it's just the pills :)
M
Da
~ November 8th, 2010 ~ 01:11I'm coming around on my "cycle" today and am very emotional; happy thoughts bring tears of joy and regrets bring tears of sorrow. For the last two days I tried to avoid people because I was feeling irritable. Bi-polarity is clearly hormonal and birth control drugs mess with your hormones more than anything!
Long ago I realized that life is a roller-coaster ride and just because you are down now, doesn't mean you won't be up again! We just have to ride it out because that next high that life brings may be greater than anything in the past.
The reason people have trouble being around someone who is depressed is because depression is very contagious. When we are in the throws of it, we focus on ourselves and lose sight of how our depression is affecting those we love. Our pain becomes theirs, and then problems happen.
Suellen Swinney
~ November 9th, 2010 ~ 01:11Thankfully I am done with birth control, but I have about 30 years of stories, both mine and others. Not all birth control is right for everyone. I've met many who could only take a certain kind. Moodiness can definitely be a reaction so I would talk to your doctor and see if there are other options. I've known many women who could not take the pill at all, some had a tendency to gain enormous amoutns of weight and I know from my own experiences that the wrong one can bring about some rather out of place 'feelings'. So, I for one, will happily blame it on the hormonal interference, just for you.
Jo
~ November 9th, 2010 ~ 09:11This is my second day off cerazette and I DO feel much more stable, which could of course be psychosomatic, but whatever it is I'll take it! I went on a few online forums and found a lot of similar stories. I suppose it makes sense that interfering with hormones can rock emotional well being. I do feel a bit cross with myself for being unable to ride it out more gracefully. I seemed to just sink pathetically under the wash of unpleasant feelings. Anyway, I am done with pills, and am going to try something else (don't expect an update on that- it is all a bit icky! I guess you will know if it fails though, because they'll be a birth announcement. Let's hope not). Thanks all for the advice and encouragement. x
Lisa~ November 10th, 2010 ~ 05:11Hey Jo, sorry to read about your dip. I refuse to take the pill now because the one time I tried it (two different kinds), it made me a crazy person. I was so emotional and irritable at the drop of a hat. I'm not willing to put myself through that again, or my husband! So I guess it could be that. Hopefully you'll figure out a workable alternative to the one you're currently on. Love to you.
Jo
~ November 10th, 2010 ~ 20:11Lisa thank you! I am discovering that once you start looking you find a lot of women with similar stories, and it is actually starting to make me pretty angry... not only do women undergo the whole "cycle" business from puberty through to menopause (can't wait for that particular joy), pregnancy and labour, but they also seem to bear the consequences of most forms of contraception in their bodies too. Hormonal interference is considered the norm for a woman who doesn't want to get pregnant (and welcomed as a revolutionary innovation) but it is a BIG DEAL to mess with your inner system in this way. Okay, getting a bit strident here, but I think I make a point, no?
Martin~ November 17th, 2010 ~ 12:11'Tis an interesting and valid point Jo, and I agree that women get a rough deal in this department!
Personally I think it would be unfair to expect a partner of mine to suffer in such a way - as you imply (I think?), why should it all be down to the girl??
Men, huh?! We're all selfish... :p
Jo
~ November 22nd, 2010 ~ 11:11As the cerezette leaves my body I am feeling less angry generally, so although I still believe we women get a rough ride, I am less inclined to blame it on you men! If Eve is in heaven I will have a few words for her though- she probably has some things to answer for...
Martin~ November 23rd, 2010 ~ 12:11*If* Eve is in heaven...
Your use of this word implies a lot!! lol
Glad you're starting to feel a bit better though. :)
